being queer at wiscon
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This is unfortunately not an "awesome things I did at WisCon!" post.
On Saturday afternoon, I went to the "Lesbians in SF/F" panel. I learned that basically without even trying very hard I have covered pretty much all of the extant lesbian characters in SF/F proper; and that I have no idea about "lesfic", which apparently grew out of Xena fandom and which I will probably look into now--it sounds like it's mostly erotica/relationship focused, so I'm not certain I'll love it to bits, but it will be interesting at any rate.
But that is not what I wanted to talk about.
See, at one point the panel was talking about who writes lesfic and/or lesbian SF/F characters, and someone brought up a short story published in a lesfic anthology. This story was written by a straight woman, and had two female characters (each grieving for a man she'd lost) having a one-night stand. Not having read the story, I can't say whether it's plausible in the context of those specific characters. But the response surprised me. Someone in the audience said (a paraphrase) "If you want to write bisexual novels, fine, but don't put it in our lesfic anthologies." And everyone seemed to be okay with that statement.
Which... surprised me. To be fair, mostly I hang out with queer people who are about my age. I haven't ever really talked with older queer people about their queerness. And I was aware that discrimination against bisexual people from within the gay community existed, but I don't see that much in people my age.
But when I read the panel title, I parsed "lesbian characters" as "female characters who like and/or like to sleep with other female characters". This doesn't exclude bisexual characters, pansexual characters, asexual characters, non-cisgendered characters... but the panelists and the audience at least in large part seemed to be using the word "lesbian" very specifically.
Even though I probably would've fit into their definitions of "lesbian" and certainly fit the general aesthetic of the room's occupants, I felt uncomfortable at that moment, excluded. Because of how I identify myself (as gay, though that has other factors as well) and because of how I see the queer community. There's a reason that I use that word now and not GLBT; I don't see it as Gay and Lesbian and Bisexual and Transgender, all the little new boxes to fit ourselves into.
(At another point this weekend, someone in a different panel audience was making a comment about queer inclusion and said "G, L, B, T, Q... whatever other letters they've added on now..." and that is another reason, to me, to just have done and call it the queer community. I don't see a need for everyone to memorize long strings of letters so that they know every single possible identification, because that would be impossible. Everyone identifies themselves, and maybe everyone uses a different word for it--the important thing is to understand how to accept and learn about identities you haven't heard of before.)
To add a third reason to my list of why I didn't like that realization: if we're talking specifically about this group that the room was calling "lesbian", that doesn't leave much room for the "speculative" bit of speculative fiction. You can do "lesbians with werewolves", you can do "lesbians with vampires", but you can't have works that transform our understanding of sexual orientation as it exists in our society. Because that's not this group we call "lesbian" any more; it's something else.
Again, to be fair, I did go to this panel for "female characters who like other female characters" recommendations, and (as we know) gender and sex are largely socially constructed as well. As a cisgendered and cissexual female, that isn't always in my consciousness--I have the privilege of being able to ignore that aspect of it.
So maybe I shouldn't be complaining because I went to see a specific panel topic and it turned out slightly more specifically focused than I wanted it to be. But a) I would have been okay with raising works that deconstructed gender and sex, as well; and b) if nothing else, it was a good reminder of why I call it the queer community, why I identify as gay (which is another post, really), and--most of all--that different generations and groups have different constructions of sexual orientation.
At the panel, I didn't feel that the atmosphere was such that I could have said something about this, but I think it would be fascinating to start this cross-generational, cross-group dialogue. About sexual orientation, about queerness, about the construction of sex and gender in society. As a feminist convention, it almost seems necessary. We say we're feminist, and some of us say we're queer, but the context of those words changes with who's saying them, their history, how they identify themselves. And part of the beauty of it is that we do have this diversity of identification, but I think it would be even more beautiful if we all talked about it to each other.
tl;dr: Hi. I'm Alena. I'm gay. I'm going to go suggest a panel topic for next WisCon now.
On Saturday afternoon, I went to the "Lesbians in SF/F" panel. I learned that basically without even trying very hard I have covered pretty much all of the extant lesbian characters in SF/F proper; and that I have no idea about "lesfic", which apparently grew out of Xena fandom and which I will probably look into now--it sounds like it's mostly erotica/relationship focused, so I'm not certain I'll love it to bits, but it will be interesting at any rate.
But that is not what I wanted to talk about.
See, at one point the panel was talking about who writes lesfic and/or lesbian SF/F characters, and someone brought up a short story published in a lesfic anthology. This story was written by a straight woman, and had two female characters (each grieving for a man she'd lost) having a one-night stand. Not having read the story, I can't say whether it's plausible in the context of those specific characters. But the response surprised me. Someone in the audience said (a paraphrase) "If you want to write bisexual novels, fine, but don't put it in our lesfic anthologies." And everyone seemed to be okay with that statement.
Which... surprised me. To be fair, mostly I hang out with queer people who are about my age. I haven't ever really talked with older queer people about their queerness. And I was aware that discrimination against bisexual people from within the gay community existed, but I don't see that much in people my age.
But when I read the panel title, I parsed "lesbian characters" as "female characters who like and/or like to sleep with other female characters". This doesn't exclude bisexual characters, pansexual characters, asexual characters, non-cisgendered characters... but the panelists and the audience at least in large part seemed to be using the word "lesbian" very specifically.
Even though I probably would've fit into their definitions of "lesbian" and certainly fit the general aesthetic of the room's occupants, I felt uncomfortable at that moment, excluded. Because of how I identify myself (as gay, though that has other factors as well) and because of how I see the queer community. There's a reason that I use that word now and not GLBT; I don't see it as Gay and Lesbian and Bisexual and Transgender, all the little new boxes to fit ourselves into.
(At another point this weekend, someone in a different panel audience was making a comment about queer inclusion and said "G, L, B, T, Q... whatever other letters they've added on now..." and that is another reason, to me, to just have done and call it the queer community. I don't see a need for everyone to memorize long strings of letters so that they know every single possible identification, because that would be impossible. Everyone identifies themselves, and maybe everyone uses a different word for it--the important thing is to understand how to accept and learn about identities you haven't heard of before.)
To add a third reason to my list of why I didn't like that realization: if we're talking specifically about this group that the room was calling "lesbian", that doesn't leave much room for the "speculative" bit of speculative fiction. You can do "lesbians with werewolves", you can do "lesbians with vampires", but you can't have works that transform our understanding of sexual orientation as it exists in our society. Because that's not this group we call "lesbian" any more; it's something else.
Again, to be fair, I did go to this panel for "female characters who like other female characters" recommendations, and (as we know) gender and sex are largely socially constructed as well. As a cisgendered and cissexual female, that isn't always in my consciousness--I have the privilege of being able to ignore that aspect of it.
So maybe I shouldn't be complaining because I went to see a specific panel topic and it turned out slightly more specifically focused than I wanted it to be. But a) I would have been okay with raising works that deconstructed gender and sex, as well; and b) if nothing else, it was a good reminder of why I call it the queer community, why I identify as gay (which is another post, really), and--most of all--that different generations and groups have different constructions of sexual orientation.
At the panel, I didn't feel that the atmosphere was such that I could have said something about this, but I think it would be fascinating to start this cross-generational, cross-group dialogue. About sexual orientation, about queerness, about the construction of sex and gender in society. As a feminist convention, it almost seems necessary. We say we're feminist, and some of us say we're queer, but the context of those words changes with who's saying them, their history, how they identify themselves. And part of the beauty of it is that we do have this diversity of identification, but I think it would be even more beautiful if we all talked about it to each other.
tl;dr: Hi. I'm Alena. I'm gay. I'm going to go suggest a panel topic for next WisCon now.
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Date: 2010-06-01 03:26 pm (UTC)I am still having trouble understanding what 'cis' means as a prefix--how it changes the noun it's attached to.
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Date: 2010-06-01 03:39 pm (UTC)So when people were casting about for a word to make an analogy with transgendered/transsexual, cis- seemed like it fit just right for a lot of geekiness: the gender that your brain has is on the same plane, the same side, the same wavelength as the gender that your body has. The symmetry worked well.
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Date: 2010-06-01 06:23 pm (UTC)Thank you! I hope so too, although of course it is all tiny steps.
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Date: 2010-06-01 05:55 pm (UTC)I'm so utterly tired of people sticking GLBT on groups/things/etc and pretending it's just GL.
(And yes, I just call it queer, too, because I feel like GLBT excludes people who are queer and do not feel they fit those categories.)
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Date: 2010-06-01 06:20 pm (UTC)In the context, that particular comment (which was at a different panel) seemed to imply the speaker was not a part of the queer community, though I did not inquire after how they identified themselves.
GLBT excludes people who are queer and do not feel they fit those categories
Definitely. It's sort of just a new set of boxes, and while arguably I am in a box labeled "gay", I put myself into it--and not everyone has to do the same.
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Date: 2010-06-01 09:17 pm (UTC)I know what you mean about people saying GLBT when really they mean GL. It's like false advertising, and it happens way too often.
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Date: 2010-06-01 06:47 pm (UTC)I think it might be that certain generations have specific ways of thinking. I think that it is likely to not be a specifically generational thing, but related to a mindset which may be more present in certain generations.
I agree with saying queer to describe one group rather than a long list of separated abbreviations.
I agree with you that this dialog is important and necessary.
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Date: 2010-06-01 09:04 pm (UTC)I think I'm significantly older than you (I just turned 28). But I feel pretty much the same way, that the queer people I know are pretty much comfortable with bisexuality. But I used to go to a queer youth group, I think for people 13-17, in the late 90s and I heard that the week the discussion topic was bisexuality (which happened a few months before I started going) things got so heated that some people had to be asked to leave.
I think there's a lot of need for more queer intergenerational dialogue. But it's hard. Once I was in e-mail contact with an older lesbian who told me that "queer" was offensive to her. I didn't know how to respond. Normally, I think that people should get to define for themselves what is offensive, but "queer" is my identity--not gay, or bi, but queer. It's not something that I can really hide for the sake of politeness.
I also like queer as a shorthand for LBGTQ+.
I wasn't able to make it to Wiscon this year, but I looked at the programming and I was surprised to see that there wasn't as much queer content as I would have expected. Did you find that to be true for you? I'm glad that you're proposing a queer panel topic.
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Date: 2010-06-01 09:56 pm (UTC)Yes, that's definitely one of the hardest things about the intergenerational dialogue--that words that seem familiar and right now were offensive a decade or two ago, and still are to some people. But talking abut that, and how those meanings shift, maybe can create some greater understanding between generations? I hope, at least.
The lesbian SF/F panel was the only one I attended with specifically queer content. I don't think there was much else, though sometimes it would come up in other panels briefly. Admittedly I was dashing about to see panels on various topics of interest, but I would love to see more queer programming at WisCon. It seems like something there'd be interest in, and there is still a lot to talk about.
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Date: 2010-06-07 06:17 am (UTC)(Sadly I won't be making it either.
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Date: 2010-06-02 07:15 am (UTC)And, queer, as much as I identify with and always will align myself with the self-identified queer community, is a generational thing. I know people – gay men my parents' age, my parents' friends – who would be enormously uncomfortable, if not offended, to hear the word queer applied to them, even in a positive, communal context. Some time ago I read a book where the author recounted being approached after a reading/talk by a very irate man who demanded she not use that word anymore, saying, "That's what they call us when they're beating us to death." I think it's both a generational divide in that the older people may not be as familiar with the concept of reclamation, but also that for us younger people, hearing that as a pejorative has not been as universal an experience as it was for them.
That said, the person who said "LGBTQ, whatever else they're adding on" really bothered me. Way to trivialize a whole bunch of people there, man!
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Date: 2010-06-02 10:10 pm (UTC)Yeeep.
And, queer . . . is a generational thing.
This whole paragraph is, yeah, a really good point. Which I think is where the need for queer (or whatever we would call it) intergenerational dialogue comes in?
"Saffic"--nice. I hadn't heard that before.
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Date: 2010-06-02 09:19 pm (UTC)I'm not one for labels, personally. They resonate with exclusivity ("I'm this and you're that."). I just use "gay" for everything.
"Cisgendered" is a term I only recently learned, in the past couple months. Has it been around longer than that? I'm unhip.
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Date: 2010-06-02 10:14 pm (UTC)I think labels can be--useful? Sometimes? At least, I'm a big fan of allowing people to label themselves, in a sense. Self-identifying yourself is key, and words are a way to explain/describe your identity to the world. Using "gay" for everything certainly sounds simpler, though, and you have a good point about exclusivity.
"Cisgendered"... I feel like I've been hearing it for a year or so? It's one of those things that's definitely been spreading, though.
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Date: 2010-06-02 10:47 pm (UTC)Love to see your panel suggestion! :)
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Date: 2010-06-03 01:26 am (UTC)The panel suggestion I ended up submitting was pretty much to have a discussion of how we (for various values of 'we') construct queerness, but there's obviously a lot of ways to go with this sort of topic and I'd love to see any or all of it.
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Date: 2010-06-03 03:46 pm (UTC)And part of that's how the language has been evolving within the community, but part of it is also how information gets to kids and youth. I feel lucky to have been put through the unitarian universalist sex ed class in middle school--they gave some good basic info, had a panel discussion with youth, etc. It was definitely GLBT, not queer, but still.
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