when Mandy shouted

[aamcnamara]

I am getting sick of As Large As Alone! (Edited to add: Also I am pretty sure it needs a different title.) I think this means that when I have resolved all my current issues with it, I should send it out to some people to see if in fact I have mucked it up beyond all repair.

Unfortunately, as soon as I resolve one problem, I realize something else that is wrong in it. Another sentence, another phrase, some other wrong note or chord. And then I glance through it and think that in fact the entire thing is flimsy, unsupported, and has no resonance to it at all.

I suspect this is what they mean when they say that works of art are never completed, only abandoned.

(Hey. I am making a work of art. That's pretty sweet.)

Comments

[ktsparrow.livejournal.com]

It's almost never as bad as you think it is, doesn't mean this phase doesn't suck, though. Good luck.

[aamcnamara.livejournal.com]

To a certain extent I have enough self-awareness to know that this is just The Stage In Which The Story Is Terrible. On the other hand, I still feel like all of my fears may well be right.

Anyway, thanks.

[vcmw]

See, I was just working on my much delayed comments on draft 2 and I was going to say among other things how much it had clarified and solidified between draft 1 and 2. In a good way, so that without becoming more didactic it had become more certain.

(Stupid main computer being crashed has meant that I spend almost no time online a week or on-computer even. For the last 2-3 months. I owe everyone communications of every type.)

[aamcnamara.livejournal.com]

Hooray! I think it is becoming yet more certain--I hope--but I would still be interested to see your thoughts on draft 2, because there are large chunks I haven't been changing at all.

Also, I can definitely send this one along when it's ready for people to look at. Sorry I didn't let you know I've been working on it past the draft I sent out, I keep sort of absently circling back around to this story and tweaking things.

(Ouch, down computers are no fun. Speaking of owing people things, I think I owe you a visit at some point? There appears to be a handy train. We should work that out sometime.)