updates from the outer regions
Sep. 23rd, 2009 11:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aamcnamaraMy life runs in these cycles--I suppose everyone's must. Sometimes LJ is where I go to say whatever's on my mind, where I go to put my thoughts out into the world. Other times, my thoughts and energy go other times, there isn't really anything I feel like putting on the Internet, and once in a while I think guiltily about how few posts I've been making.
So, in typical Alena fashion, I am posting about not knowing quite what to post. There are all these little gems that drop daily into my lap--things my professors say, realizations I have, moments shared with my friends. I treasure them, and yet they don't feel like things to be processed and put into LJ posts as some things in my life do. I haven't been running everything through my mind as through a sieve, straining out the finest grains of experience.
Even the writing-related things I do (finishing a first draft, working on a revision, writing a little bit on the new novel) don't seem to merit posts here at the moment.
Probably the correct answer is, "So don't update your LJ. Just live your life." Which is wise advice, and I know that probably not many people do notice when I don't update for a while. But part of what makes LJ appealing to me is the community here, and I haven't been participating much in that community lately. I've been keeping up with reading my friends page, to a certain extent, but I haven't been commenting, haven't been posting. I don't want to let my position as a member of this community slip just because I've recently entered into this whole new community that is college.
(Also, I really do enjoy having this space to introspect generally, think about what my life means, talk about whatever's on my mind.)
This post, then, is to say (to myself and to anyone who's reading) that I will return eventually and I know I'll be the better for having taken this time just to live. That I'm aware of this step I'm taking away from using LJ as a main vehicle for my thoughts into the world, and I'm okay with that. But that I will, in turn, try to remember to participate in the community when I can. To try to work out that balance between communities. Because both of them are part of who I am.
So, in typical Alena fashion, I am posting about not knowing quite what to post. There are all these little gems that drop daily into my lap--things my professors say, realizations I have, moments shared with my friends. I treasure them, and yet they don't feel like things to be processed and put into LJ posts as some things in my life do. I haven't been running everything through my mind as through a sieve, straining out the finest grains of experience.
Even the writing-related things I do (finishing a first draft, working on a revision, writing a little bit on the new novel) don't seem to merit posts here at the moment.
Probably the correct answer is, "So don't update your LJ. Just live your life." Which is wise advice, and I know that probably not many people do notice when I don't update for a while. But part of what makes LJ appealing to me is the community here, and I haven't been participating much in that community lately. I've been keeping up with reading my friends page, to a certain extent, but I haven't been commenting, haven't been posting. I don't want to let my position as a member of this community slip just because I've recently entered into this whole new community that is college.
(Also, I really do enjoy having this space to introspect generally, think about what my life means, talk about whatever's on my mind.)
This post, then, is to say (to myself and to anyone who's reading) that I will return eventually and I know I'll be the better for having taken this time just to live. That I'm aware of this step I'm taking away from using LJ as a main vehicle for my thoughts into the world, and I'm okay with that. But that I will, in turn, try to remember to participate in the community when I can. To try to work out that balance between communities. Because both of them are part of who I am.